Diet Days Ahead...

The time has finally come. I knew it would, but I didn't realize it would go this far. The other day I finally got the courage to step on the scale and saw three numbers that shocked me to my very core. I think the ricter scale may have registered a small earthquake. No I won't reveal the actual weight, but sufise it to say, it's the biggest I've ever been. Yikes! I knew I was getting fat when my wardrobe had dwindeled down to three pairs of stretchy pants and a handful of tee shirts, but this was ridiculus. No longer can I fit into my jeans, or cute little skirts. Cute sexy tops? A thing of the past. My favorite pair of go go boots? Nope. Even my legs are fat.

Obviously something must be done, but what? I love my food. Especially desserts, cream sauces, pasta, and cheese. Chocolate alone is an everyday essential, it's like oxygen. Oh and did I mention that I love to cook? Never trust a skinny cook has always been my motto, only problem is I didn't want to actually fulfill (overflow)that statement.

Exercise? Sure, I like doing active things, like hiking, biking, kayacking etc, but most of those activities go on in my mind. The idea is nice, and I know I enjoy it once I do it, but staying at home is so much easier. Plus, there are so many other things that need my attention (cleaning the house, watching tv, checking email etc). I could go to a gym or do some excercises at home, but nah. I always say I will but never do, see the problem with me is, I'm just not that diciplined in that department.

But... I can't ignore it any longer. Summer is coming and unless I want to walk around in a mumu I need to get off my fat arse and fix it.

There is only one thing to do: I need to diet. (Gasp!). I hate dieting. I tried Weight Watchers a couple of times, and lost weight, but got sick to death of counting points. Talk about obsessing over food. Every little thing (including drinks) needs to be added up, and guess what? I only got a grand total of 20 points a day! When you figure that breakfast alone, just cereal and milk (non fat) adds up to 5 points (and that's less than 1 cup of ceral I mean who gets full on that?) you start getting pretty discouraged. So WW was out. I spent the better part of two days researching diets online, and came across a few that I thought sounded good, but after reading more about them realized they weren't for me. Alas, I decided to turn to my mother, who has been loosing weight without following a specific diet. Her idea? Just cut out desserts and butter. She has lost over 30 pounds that way so it must work.

Hmmm... sounds easy enough. Desserts huh? well obvously I am going to need to make sacrifices, in order to loose weight, I suppose that I could give up that. Besides all that sugar is not good, and I don't want to end up diabetic. Butter? I can do that. Easy peasy. I hardly use it. Except when I put it on my pasta or bread, or mashed potatoes...What's that? no cream sauces either? Or cheese? Oh boy. Well, never mind I can change. (I think).

So today is technically day 3 of my new diet. But yesterday didn't count as I messed up when was forced to eat out, and accidently ate a cream soup (so not my fault as was fasely advertised under the title of roasted red pepper) and bruschetta that had been toasted with butter. And I may or may not have had thousand island dressing on my salad, last night, when after rumaging through the fridge noticed all diet dressing had expired and therefore had to be thrown away, even though the experation date was only last december. So right now I'm trying to be good and not run to the kitchen and stuff my face with a peanut butter and jelly sandwhich. Since I'm starving to death after eating ceral, yogurt, some diet chips and half a banana all in the 3 hours I have been awake, I'm not exactly sure how I will fare...