Day one. Again.

Pounds lost? O Pounds gained? 1 Whoops.

Well it doesn't take a genius to figure out I'm not doing well on this diet. In fact I pretty much accidentally went off my diet altogether. After my day of freedom on Tuesday, things quickly went from bad to worse.

Dieting has always been hard for me, which is why I choose not to do it very often. My willpower isn't very strong, so If I stray off course, I'm likely to get completely lost. After Tuesday, I ate whatever I wanted Wednesday. And yesterday being Valentines Day, well I figured that wasn't a good day to behave either, especially after consuming popcorn, candy, hot dogs, and nachos at the movies. But it was a holiday, so technically it doesn't count right? Maybe I shouldn't have had pizza for dinner though ...

Which brings me to today. As I write this I'm eating a very yummy bagel with cream cheese. But only half. Although tonight my husband has requested enchiladas, which as a good wife, I said I would make. Doesn't that sound delicious?

Not a good train of thought when dieting huh?

So I have a new theory. I can't stay away completely from butter, and sugar which by the way includes a lot more foods then one would think . It may work for my mom, who come to think of it, doesn't even like chocolate (Is that normal?) but it isn't for me. Life has a bad habit of getting in the way of dieting. You aren't always able to follow a strict regime. Sometimes you have to eat out, and a salad just won't do, or you just need that piece of chocolate, brownie, ice cream sundae, whatever. The point is, I can limit my intake of problem foods as much as possible and eat smaller portions. i.e. put less Rice a Roni on my plate and more vegetables. Which I know is a big DUH right? Yeah well, It sometimes takes me a while to catch on. But I finally did, and I'm starting this theory today.

You see, I feel that we shouldn't deprive ourselves completely of the food we desire. It's too depressing. Especially for me who is a self proclaimed foodie. I love my food. I do not like to feel that I'm suffering when I have to eat a banana instead of a cookie. (I don't care what diet guru's try to tell you, the sweetness of fruit, does not replace the craving of cake, cookies etc.) I just need to learn how not to go overboard. That is the hardest part of all.

Have one peanut butter cup instead of the whole package? Ugh. Here we go again...